Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Chop chop chop...

When I was younger my older sister, Amy, was allowed to cut my hair. I vividly remember the "shroom top" cuts that were never quite even, and how they would end up shorter than intended due to "evening it up." Well, once I turned about 10 I decided to let my hair grow longer...and longer...then a little shorter...then longer. I never let it get above my shoulders because I was always really self conscience about my weight and thought the only thing I had going for me was my long hair, it was what defined me.

A year ago I finally got the courage to get a trim b/c I had kept the 95lbs off for a year, and was finally willing to let my security blanket go. So, the first step was to the middle of my back...it was hard, and I almost cried, but I dealt with it and went on.

Nine months ago I got some more courage and got it cut to my shoulders. This one didn't work out so well. The cut was nice, but the length was just kind of awkward. I finally started liking the length a few months ago, but recently was in need of a bigger change. So, when I went on vacation I had my little sister dye the very front of my hair blonde. My husband had been teasing me that I should dye the whole thing blonde...and when I got home, he said I should still try completely blonde, but he liked how it turned out.

Well, seeing as I am a woman, and am never satisfied....it wasn't quite enough. I still get mistaken for a high schooler, and last month the mother of a new family in the ward, whose daughter is in my Sunday School class, came into the class and looked at me and asked if the teacher was here today. I couldn't help but laugh, and she apologized and is a total sweetheart!!!

...sorry, got off track...

Anyways, I cut my hair today, and I LOVE it. I had a shorter length in mind, but I am way happier with how it turned out. I just woke up last Saturday and decided that I wanted to cut my hair...and it took a couple of days to gather the courage.

I can now say that the last thread of my security blanket is gone...and good riddance!!! I am a young (but not teenager young), beautiful woman, no matter what my weight is, what clothes I wear, if I wear makeup (never did/never will), or who I am with.

This was a very liberating day for me! Ya-ya!

13 comments:

Brittany said...

Wow, that's cute! Good choice!

Momma Sarah said...

Holy Smokes girl! LOVE IT! But, now the kids won't recognize you! ha ha!!!

Mary said...

Sarah-now they really might think I was a figment of their imagination! Abby is still the age where she might think I was just a temporary imaginary friend. Sorry, all the childhood dev stuff from school keeps coming out...maybe that means I am retaining some of it!

Michelle said...

I seriously love it. It is sooooo you.

Kristina P. said...

Mary, I saw your comment on Brittany's blog, and decided to pop on over.

First, your hair is adorable. I really wish I had hair that could look like that.

And second they ARE coming out with the DSM-V in 2012, and have been working on it since 1999! Should be fun times!

I'm an SSW, and I see you are going to be a nurse! Excellent.

Anyway, I may start stalking you, if that's OK. :)

Mary said...

I love Stalkers!!! wait...well, in this sense I do ;-)

As long as the new revision doesn't come out before I have to write the boards, I'm good! But it really is inevitable. The closer we look at the human mind & relationships, the more we find wrong.

I have so much respect for what you do, and hope that you have come into contact with some great nurses!

Kristina P. said...

Mary, one of my very best friends is a nurse, and she's awesome, and my husband is an EMT. He is hoping to start a paramedic program up at the U, in January. I'm sure you'll be awesome!

I'm not very good with medical stuff.

Vic and Al said...

Cute! I also noticed your wedding ring in that pic. . . i remember that ring! :)

Grandma Arnold said...

What is that in the left lower corner of your pic showing your new haircut?

Mary said...

mom-it's my shadow

Al-good job on your undercover detective work!! I still get compliments on it. This buser @ Panera Bread even asked if she could try it on...umm, I said no, she was kinda weird & stranger danger!!!

Amyleigh said...

I LOVE IT!!!!! You look awesome!!! I got the same haircut after I had Annabelle and never regretted that one ;-)

hamm613 said...

oh my gosh! I LOVE IT!

I DIDN"T REALIZE IT WAS YOU FOR A SECOND!

i'm giving you the biggest hug when I come home.

Wells' Family said...

LOVE your new hair! Very you, very cute. Maybe one of these days I'll see it in person! Hope school is going well.....
Kelly :)